Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I'm angry. And bitter.

I'm just in a really foul mood. Every bit of research I've done is saying that the best bet would be to do injectables for our IUI procedure. Problem is, my Dr. said the average cost is between $2k-$3k each cycle. Who the heck has this kind of extra money just there. I know we don't. Plus, there is no guarantee that the first cycle would work and we'd still be trying to have a baby, only a few grand less than what we started. I understand it's a risk to take, but at the same time, it all just frustrates me.

Why is it that so many people who don't deserve to have children.. who neglect them.. don't teach them the things a parent should teach their child, etc. are able to just pop them out? And I expected to pay a few grand JUST FOR MEDICATIONS. This does not even include the cost of the actual procedure.

Can't something please go my way?! It would have all worked out perfect... I wanted to be pregnant in September, so that we would be due after we both graduate from school and I would be able to take that full year off to stay at home with the baby. That little dream is slipping away.. and pretty fast at that.

So, if anyone has any ideas of how to get a bunch of money, let me know. We don't qualify for the few loan programs I've found out there. And don't bother suggesting robbing a bank. I've already thought of that. And decided that wouldn't be the best bet. If I'm in jail, then I guess that would lessen the possibility of me getting pregnant, huh?


dmarie said...

It's so unfortunate that money has to play such a big role, isn't it? I also hate the idea of getting into so much debt before a baby is even conceived--much less born. It all just sucks.

Anonymous said...

Any chance that once you finish school you will be able to find a job with insurance that covers IF? Not sure how you go about doing that, but it's a shot. I'm so sorry.